Thursday, 5 November 2015

My story

I don't really know how to start this blogpost for once. I don't really know where this is going either, I  just need to get this out of my mind.

I was underweight my entire life. People would always tell me things like "gosh you're so skinny" " are you on a diet?" "why do you eat so little" "I'm so scared to break your bones" " I feel like if you go out when it's too windy the wind will take you away" "you should force yourself to eat more".

At the age of 15 my mum brought me to the doctor for one of those check up you have to do every year or something. I can remember this day as if it happened yesterday. He measured and weighted me and of course told me that I should eat more because I was underweighted. I didn't know what to do. Eat more? yes, but I am not hungry. I never wanted to force myself. I ate until I was completely full and that was it. I wasn't skipping any meal, I ate like everyone else. I was just not able to eat as much as everyone else. Everyone more or less close to me know that I still don't eat a lot.

At some point I tried to eat a lot of crap. Chocolate, biscuits, anything full of sugar. Everyone knows that sugar makes you fat right? That wasn't working at all. All it was doing was giving me hundreds of blemishes and spots.

I eventually gave up on it. I convinced myself that I was skinny because my dad is also skinny and this might be genetic. Whenever someone will tell me that I was too skinny or that they were scared to break my bone by touching me (because yes I do hear this a lot) I would just politely smile at them and ignore what they just said to me.

Inside that "eating problem" followed me every single day of my life. Going to restaurants or at people's place is a massive stress and challenge. I know that I won't be able to finish the meal, I know that everyone will be looking and judging me for wasting food. I know that I will feel bad for not being able to eat just like everyone else. I am always asking for help to finish off my meals. Eventually I learnt to live with it. I got use to it, it became part of me.

I never asked for help concerning this "problem", I never talked to anyone, never told this story to anyone. Why? I know what they will tell me. Force yourself to eat more. I know that, I tried. I can't.

I moved to Australia when I was 18, I was 162 cm and I weighted 41KG when I was suppose to weight between 49 and 56KG. 

A while ago I decided to forget about all of this, forget about the number on the scale and just try to be healthy. I started cooking my own meal, I do workouts, I try new things out and be as healthy as possible. Not long ago I decided to stop eating meat. That is obviously very personal but I don't think humans should be eating meat. I therefore needed to find substitutes, I changed my eating habits and without noticing it I started gaining weight. It is slow (extremely slow) and I am still underweight but now I feel comfortable with my body. I am happy and no one will take that away from me. I feel proud of myself for gaining 3KG which seems like nothing to most people but it means the world to me. 

I am not writing this to show off, there are millions of stories 100 times more impressing than mine. But if I can manage to convince at least one person out there to forget about people's perception and focus on being healthy, all of this will be worth it.

Skinny does not mean pretty, Skinny does not mean ugly. A 6 packs does not mean healthy. What you put in your body, what you have on your mind this is what determines how healthy you are.

I don't know how many people are still reading this, but if you are, know that what is important is to know that you made the effort of being healthy. Not the number on the scale.

Thank you for your precious time.

ps: I apologies for any spelling or grammar error. 

Saturday, 17 October 2015

Vegan banana pancake

It's has been a while since I haven't post an article on the blog. I was just about to make some vegan banana pancake and I thought why not sharing my recipe, so here it is!

I created this recipe one day when I was craving for pancakes but didn't have any ingredients in my fridge. It turned out to be so beautiful and delicious, I have being using it ever since then. They taste so good and are so healthy I just can't get enough! 

For about 5 pancakes:
  • 1 mature banana
  • 1 table spoon of Chia seeds
  • 5 table spoon of flour
  • 1 table spoon of honey
  • 1 teaspoon of vanilla extract (optional)
  • 1/2 of warm water

Before getting started you will need to put your chia seeds in a little bowl with five times the amount of chia seeds in water.  (5 table spoon of water for one table spoon of chia seeds). Let it sit for 10mins. If you don't have any Chia seeds and are not vegan you can go ahead and skip this step, just replace the mixture with one egg later on.

Start by chopping your banana into a bowl and add your honey, then start mashing your banana into a banana mash and slowly add the water as you go to make the process easier. Once it has a nice consistency, add your flour, give it a good stir and add your chia seeds preparation (or an egg).

Mix everything together until you have a homogeneous mixture.

Heat a pan on a medium heat and add half a tea spoon of coconut oil (or butter) so the pancakes doesn't stick to your pan. Poor the mixture into the pan, let it cook for one minute on each side.

Bon appétit!

Thursday, 30 July 2015

Paris through my camera lens

"Paris is always a good idea" - Audrey Hepburn. 

I was lucky enough to visit France this summer, where I spent twenty amazing days in the beautiful city of Paris! Today, instead of writing paragraphs and paragraphs I will let you travel through the pictures. I grouped the photographs and wrote a little "storyline" in order for you to see what a day in Paris would be like.

The sun is shining since 6:30am, it is the 14th of July, the French national day. It is Bastille day.
We start our journey by visiting the famous and beautiful basilica of the sacred heart (Sacré-Coeur).

Walking in the small alleys of Paris, passing by the artistes street (La rue des artistes)

 Stopping by the very famous Eiffel tower, an absolute must see!

Lunch break at the Tokyo place (le palais de Tokyo) 

Little walk along the Seine ...

Having a break full of naughtiness in the lindt cafe.

Walking on the Chams-Élysées before finding a nice spot to watch the fireworks.

Going back near the Eiffel tower for the majestic fireworks of the 14th of July.